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sorry for the delay : )

November 3, 2009 at 14:54 (Delivery, eshaan, family, H1N1, pregnancy) (eshaan, H1N1, pregnancy, school, work)

it’s been quite a while ever since i’ve updated my blog… sorry sorry lah… been really busy and all…

if u are connected to my fb.. u would know that my FIL is in TTSH… he collapsed after a soccer game – the Sultan of Selangor Cup (Veterans) game. To think of it.. it’s been one month ever since he is in TTSH… for the first 20 days, he was in the CCU.. and he just was moved to a normal ward about a week ago… although he was moved, he is still in coma.. thank you one and all for all ur kind words and prayers… all of us really need him and want him to get better… thank you once again. please do continue ur kind prayers : )

my FIL was admitted on the 4th October… and I caught the dreadful H1N1 on the 5th of October.. great timing right… lol… It was unimaginable. I really didnt mind getting fever and sick and all but the thought of having to be isolated alone for a week was CRAZY! KKH gave me two choices – to be admitted or to be home qurantined. i chose the earlier one. at least at home I could watch all the SCV channels that i’ve subscribed and having the internet connection rather than getting stuck at KKH and not having visitors or full SCV channels (unless i move myself to an A1 ward… urghhh! anyway, my time at home was alright… the 1st 3 days i was really down with fever and cough till i lost my voice.. it was really bad! so frustrating to be alone and not able to talk to anyone… i’m like a hermit… after the 1st 3 days, i got really bored of everything… bored of FB, bored of the TV, bored of the internet, bored of doing laundry and cleaning, just bored. I couldnt be with my son, my husband, my family or anyone else… I got really depressed! really bad that i would cry every few hours and thought stupid thoughts… the devil was really at work then… i would call my hubby and pick up a fight and accuse him of silly things and cry… it was really bad.. really people.. go and get the injection and i pray that u never never get the H1N1!! it was really terrible.

so many things happen in this short period of time… mum’s moving house too… i really hope that she’ll be able to get a flat close to my place.. i would really love to have her to move in with me but i know that she’ll prefer to stay on her own..  so after helping my in laws with the moving of their flat, now, i’m helping my mum with her moving… very tired.. and trying not to complain… lol!

i am also contemplating whether i should sell my place or rent it out in the near future. both my in laws and my dad wants us to move in with them and rent out our place so that they could help to look after eshaan and the little one.. i would most probably be having a maid next year… so extra income from the rental would really be helpful… but i’m really not sure. with eshaan going to school next year.. we would need as much extra income as we can… sending eshaan to a nursery is NOT cheap.. my gosh.. as i was making the calls to the schools, I wonder.. they charge so high for the school fees monthly but the teacher’s pay in the nursery or kindergarten is very low.. what happens to the rest of the money??? we were actually certain that we wanted to put eshaan into a nursery group near my in laws place.. placed him on the waiting list too but we got a call 2 weeks ago telling us that the centre that we are putting eshaan in will be converted into a child care centre… i certainly DO NOT want to put eshaan into a child care.. so now, i have to look for another nursery centre for him… sometimes i feel like i dont want to put eshaan into a nursery at all… so much trouble! so the moral of the story is: Eshaan is still not enrolled  to any centre yet! pfftt!

i had my check up last friday.. I tried my luck asking Dr Irene for a letter allowing me to travel in december.. “U want to travel? Nope. Sorry. Not allowed.. Your baby’s position is quite low.. so better not.” looks like i’m just heading to Sentosa… this pregnancy was a toughy.. 1st trimester was bad.. had to be hospitalised and all… then came the H1N1… even now i feel like i can give birth anytime.. serious. i feel very heavy and i can feel the pressure when i walk and do housework.. According to my doctor, i can deliver anytime between December and February (although my EDD is the 16th Feb 2010)… and now, my conversation between me and my baby is,”If you do need to come out earlier, please be out at least after the 12th December! At least mama will have her bonus! lol!!!”

so when do u think i will deliver… let’s have a guess…